PC

how adorable is this little girl. she's a pc. even though i hate pc, i still love this commercial.

Oh its february..

yes i know its a time of love but for me its a time to start a new. yes i may be late a bit on the new year resolutions but i think that my mind is finally settling.  im regaining consciousness after being in a state of disillusionment and unrealistic daydreams.  sadly, it took me a full month, several discouraging creditors calling my ass, a real bitching from the parental unit to finally wake up.  

unfortunately i am still jobless but actively looking for a job. kind of going insane as no one is hiring or responding to any of my inquiries. i sooo want to punch economy in its face! which reminds me of the wonderful etrade commercial. 

oh and yes. if anyone wants to purchase a nintendo ds onyx with 15 games, let me know! prices are negotiable! i just need the money asap >_<

if you're not in the guild yet, what are you waiting on! join watchtheguild.com now and watch the funniest mini webshow ever.  yea granted that i only find it amusing due to the fact that i can relate so much to the characters. yes im a geek and what!

mmmm pho

Lunar New Year

Happy Chinese New Year!
Today also marks my 5th monthsary with the girl who's a friend.

Last night was quite interesting. We decided to have a little cook out. We cooked some pork ribs, corn on the cob and green beans over at fish boy Ryan's place. While we were waiting for the ribs to cook we decided to hang around the fire pit he had in his backyard. Mallorie and Ryan decided to get drunk and steal wood from the neighbors. We had a good time just burning all that wood. I ended up smelling like smoke but it was worthed. The view of the dock from his backyard was really cool and peaceful. After eating all that food Ryan decided to head over to ruby tuesdays to get more drunk. We sat around for a bit at the bar where Margie the bartender decided to give me tonic water, by accident, but gross. I just wanted water since I'm really trying to cut back on the alcohol. All that alcohol mix drinks is making me fatter and its time I start my crash diet before the spring season arrives. So after an interesting conversation with Mallorie's best friend and a surprise call from Gaby we suddenly had a brilliant idea to head over to a strip bar on Bonney road in VA Beach called L.A.'s which consequently was the same strip bar that Ryan's ex Kat works at. I finally got to meet Kat which was nice after being myspace friends forever now and yet we havent met ever. It was my first time going to a strip bar so it was quite an experience. It was fun throwing dollar bills at the girls. So while we were there Mallorie decided to sit next to this guy and made friends with him. They then started making paper footballs out of the dollar bills and flicking them to the girls. How degrading right? As if those girls werent degraded enough. I mean those girls didnt look as bad as I thought they would to be honest. There were a couple of cute girls and Kat was one of them. Sadly I couldnt really understand anything we were talking about because she was talking too fast and too low for me to hear so I just smiled and nodded at everything she said. Overall it was a great time minus Ryan getting all emo on us so we had to call it a night by 11.30. which meant we only spent an hour at that place. I guess that was a good thing since Mallorie had to wake up for work at 5am this morning. Which puts us to right now... having coffee, reading news, chatting it up at the guild before I start my day.

i cant decide

its been so long since ive blogged on this one too. i cant decide which blog to post on blogger. i guess ill try to keep up with both for awhile until i get sick of it. 

THE COUNTDOWN BEGINS!

College

The biggest issue as of now. College. How to pay for it is the main question. i did get accepted to my back-up school O.D.U. as i would figure. So now the long anticipated wait for VCU and JMU admission letter is underway... Hoping i would get into JMU and eventually hang out with Vivian more often and cant forget to do laundry at her house. Haha. Yes. Indeed.. i cant wait.

For some odd reason, i tend to sociallize better with the class of '04. from landstown that is. i certainly miss those crazy 04-ers.. They seemed to care less about the drama and focused more on having the time of their lives. i think we should all be doing so at this momment in our senior year or any year. live life like there is no tomorrow. that is what i shall be looking forward to waking every morning to.

i will see you all in a few...

Eureka!

ding! a bell rang in my head. I scurried down the stairs into the living room carrying the book of code. no. nothing. not a stir. running back into the room sitting comfortably.. then EUREKA! i definitely had this sense of feeling HIGH! no drugs, no alcohol. sobber. i figured it all out. A LAST! My time finally came!!! after 4 long years of waiting. something or should i say someone has finally became "available"?? yes. now i definitely remember the feelings, well thoughts perhaps... when i would see the visions of a future. its something thats always been in the back of my head, but ive never been able to, more like given the chance to, let it seep out. At last... but i sure do hope its mutual... now comes the hardest part of it all. The Wait. that is all i can say.

at 11.12PM we, Elaine Bay, Brandon Carr and I, have established that we would become the 3 Amigos. Seeing as to we're always left out of the "happenings" and pretty much lost touch with the close friends. So instead.. we will be great friends because we say what's on our heads. As if i dont do that already. Ive always figured that it's best to say it than to let it linger in your head, slowly eating you up. Ive been down that old road and it was not pretty.

Ive changed. I know i have and i will be a first to admit that. Yes, people change, and not just physically. Im not gonna go off and say that only my friends have changed. because i know for a fact that i have changed as well. I am no longer that shy person who hides behind the crowd. i want all eyes on me. yes. i am bold. i am blunt. i am bitchy and annoying. but do i care. NO. i refuse to let it get to me because i am who i am today because of the bullshit experiences ive gone through since day 1. if you say something.. i will say something back.. as simple as that. no more. none. i will see you all in the future... and will be the first to say.. YES, IVE CHANGED...

How Can I?

So how can i? easy, i walked away and never thought about again. Why is so simple to say things and do another? How is it that some of us, life goes on great and never turns upside down? Why are we different? The answers, does not lie in a book, or in some research compilled by scientific brainiacs. The answers lie in the LIFE.

Im here to reiterate that although life is shitty as it can be for me right now, i know ill get though this ALONE. because people just seem to complicate everything more. and they really upset me.

see my tears

LIFES A BITCH THEN YOU DIE!

SHIT HAPPENS ALL THE TIME.

Constantine

Yes, i was one of the many who saw Constantine tonight. Great movie! Have no bad comment except maybe for the whole "boy saves girl, girl falls in love" cliche'. Great Story line, loving the effects. Use of some 3d graphics here and there. I'd love to say more in details but many of you out there havent seen it. If your a catholic you would enjoy this movie to a much longer extent partly because many of the events taking place is biblical. Now im going to say that if you are a catholic that is not so much into the old testament and more open minded your definitely going to find this movie some what relating. I certainly wouldnt mind seeing it again.

Keanu Reeves portrayed a total asshole who in biblical story was an actual person who was suicidal and is trying to bride his way to heaven. But lucifer will not let this go without a fight. It was interesting to watch Reeve. Here is this old fart,still looking so cool. He managed to stay slim and skinny, but we can defitely tell that time is not going his way. Ageing. the process of going old. Anyone ever notice how he likes to play these "godlike, biblical" parts? Matix for example, Reeves played the Mesiah Neo. Now Constantine? Interesting.

Picture This.

kat and princess consuela 
haha. i just want to take this moment to say, i have the same coche as t-roy. haha. yes.old toyota camry's rocks.

ok question. does this look like me? seriously. that isnt me at all. i look like a person who just woke up from a very long sleep. either that or some pot head. but i thought it was interesting how pictures can be so decieving. really interesting stuff. if i look back at my pictures, i dont look nothing like em. im one of those non -photogenic people. sad really. i cant take a single dessant looking picture. wait. my senior picture was good. only after being retouched and all the special stuff the company did. but i like taking pictures. not of me necessarily but of random people. i like to see their reactions in the pictures. i take some really great one's by luck. pictures when people arent looking but simply living. Its those kinds of pictures that are really something. They make it seem like the people in the picture is actually laughing and having a blast, or being really sad and depressed. showing emotions. landscapes show great emotions too. if you look at a sky with clouds and rays of light from the sun. thats like happiness. although there are clouds, the rays of light says its going to be a good day and youll live through it.

Ive always had a dream of being a photographer when i was a little kid. its just one of those dreams that simple disappear in the midst of all the chaos within the time of growing up, maturing, evolving to the persistent, arrogant, foolish young adult that we all tend to pass through. hilarious stuff. i cant stand the fact that ive grown out of the cute little kid that i once was. cant stand the emotions, attitudes and behavior that i now have. mhh. one more thing to ponder countless nights upon.

Mhh. i have more to say but so little time to say it. so ill update later. Ciao.

AT LAST!

A last, there is actual content in here now. Im going to change it up a bit later. But for now at least i have actual stuff in here and not the whole under construction sign.

Theres basicly not much new, life is still sucking. Um. My financial status hasnt changed. Im still alone. School is still being a pain to get up early in the morning to get up for. Work sucks, i dont even want to go and sit in front of the computer at work. Ech. Anyways, at least stuff is finally happening. Every weekend to we exact. Starting Friday nights till Sunday. Packful days. Really. So thats pretty much whats good at the moment.

If you feel that you need to be a part of this little thing i have going on here, just email me. I wont bite. LoL. Um. Eventually ill have music posts and pictures. and plenty of flashy items. Till then. Ciao